I have been alternating between being upset and feeling down since yesterday. The reason is that, my dearest father, whom I love with aaaaaallllll my heart(Rolling My Eyes),Who, in the words of my sister, is the one man who is fundamentally able to affect me,even more than I can say, said things to me that he has no right to say.
So, I prayed to God for forgiveness. I prayed also, for God to help me forgive him. Prayed to let go, asked for the Holy Spirit to help me,and all that jazz.
And my mind was cast back to the story in the Bible of the charade that was Jesus’ unjust trial, death sentence and crucifixion.
Now,In all of the ‘proceedings’ of that dark thursday night slash wee hours of friday morning, we are told that, even though he had been unjustly accused, and unfairly treated, He never even expressed anger. On the cross, at the height of probably one of the most excruciatingly painful deaths to die, the man was still forgiving people! He prayed that those who crucified Him should not be held responsible for their deeds because in His words, they ‘did not know what they were doing’. *straight face*.
He did nothing to these people! I’ve been foaming at the mouth because my father upset me, and people,’ let me understand you something'(caribbean for let me tell you something), my thoughts towards him at the time were not good o! I am even partly responsible for him insulting me. Yet, this Jesus, who had done nothing wrong, whose main crime lay in existing and telling the truth, got hurt so bad. And all He could was pray for them??
Sigh.I have a long way to go.
P.S- Anyone who dares think of Christianity as a bread and butter religion had better think again. Nothing about it is remotely simple. Try doing the things this man did. Forget Nigerians who seem to portray God as their own personal puppet(http://dailytimes.com.ng/opinion/how-worship-nigerian-god
.) They are all jokers.